P.S: Do you know that I love you? I probably already told you, but i'm going to keep saying it. There are no lies in these words, not one bit. Your smile keeps me alive. Is one more reason to keep fighting. I would give you my soul for comfort, even if it leaves me dark and cold. And when i hold you close, i can feel your heart beat fast, and i think to myself.. "She is feeling the same way!" :) ♥
Well, im back and im hoping i can write a more decent post this time ehee.. Long a bit i hope since i dont write much in my earlier posts. I have decided that im going to include new quotes in my every post which i made myself with a few immitation from others as well hehe. Im not really good at it.. :P
So the above quotes is the first one.
Im feeling very shy to admits my feeling here but i figured that more than a milion people are writing blog so my 1 blog over here will surely not be noticed anyways. So, here i go :)
I love her, i really do.. Tho words cant actually describe my whole feeling towards her, i hope this even if a bit will tell her and i hope she knows just how much i love her. i love you honey. :)
Lets review history,
There she was, im about 8 year old that time, i dont even know what love is that time, i seriously dont.
Its funny to think back now that im here (18 years old ) how a 8 years old boy encounter love for the first time.
One glance at her, I straightly fell.. <3
Should i admit my feelings to her?
Being just 8. ( im blushing here :P )
Thanks to her, i discovered LOVE, the feeling that everyone seek to feel,
make you feel warm, smiling without reason, and most importantly, the feeling will be remembered throughout you life.
She is the first one. That make you feel, how wonderful this life is.
Sitting near to her everyday makes the feeling lot more stronger.
Seeing her smile, makes you just, hmm. No words can describe it. Hoping that she wont notice everytime you take a look at her.
Hoping that, she do the same? hehe.
For 4 years thats all i have been doing, The feeling grew stronger.
But every year it seems more and more, BAD :(
I dont know why but i start to become, well BAD.
I know the reason, i think that was the reason.
REASON : I felt that i cant attract her attention. I think that she will never FEELl the SAME.
I start to ignore her, being bad at her.
So i can forget her. What a selfish decision. She look very fine but it. But, she is cying inside. ( i dont know it this time ) :(
Its sad when i look back at time where i have hurt her so much, cause so much pain, and yet, At the very present, DO THE SAME.
Regrets slumber yourself and you oath never to do that again, but yet, it seems so hard which it happen without you ( I ) even NOTICING.
What you can do is, try better, time will change us all. Insyaallah, for better. :)
Looks like my plan actually work,
2005,
Im 12 that year and so does she.
She hardly talk to me anymore and now, she already found someone.
it really brokes my heart.
Shatter me a part.
At least she is happy.
Let the story continue next time..
Love Make Me Alive. :)
